The house on Rue des Orfèvres wore its prosperity like a mourner wears crepe—heavily, conspicuously, and with the faint suggestion that the grief might be counterfeit. It stood four stories tall in the mercantile heart of Verrières, its limestone facade blackened by the soot of a thousand chimneys, its windows blinded by iron balconies that permitted the inhabitants to observe the street without being observed themselves. The effect was that of a fortress disguised as a residence, or perhaps a prison that had learned to charge rent.
Rolanda Calloway McAnally had lived within these walls for seven years, and in that time she had calculated that the house contained three hundred and twelve paces from cellar to attic, forty-seven doors, and exactly one room in which she was permitted to speak without first being addressed.
That room was the kitchen, and even there her dominion was borrowed.
On the morning of April the fifteenth, eighteen hundred and forty-two, Rolanda stood at the scullery window watching the butcher's boy wheel a barrow of offal toward the river. The sky was the color of pewter, and a thin rain had begun to fall, streaking the glass like the tracks of snails. She was twenty-nine years old, though the parish register insisted upon thirty-one—her father had been careless with dates, or perhaps merely indifferent, as he had been with all things that concerned daughters. Her hair was the shade of honey that had crystallized in the jar, drawn back so tightly from her temples that the skin at her hairline seemed to shine. Her eyes were grey, or green, or perhaps neither; they had the quality of a mirror that reflects whatever is placed before it while revealing nothing of its own nature.
Behind her, the cook was plucking a pheasant with the methodical violence of a woman who had long ago ceased to distinguish between the dead and those who merely wished to be.
"Madame will take her chocolate in the small salon?" the cook asked, though her tone made it clear this was not a question but a stage direction.
"Madame will take her chocolate here," Rolanda replied, "if it does not inconvenience the household's schedule."
A pause. A feather drifted to the flagstones.
"The Commissar has already departed for the Prefecture. He took his coffee at six."
Rolanda nodded, though the cook could not see her face. She had known Edmond's schedule before the cook had risen to light the stove. She knew it as a prisoner knows the footsteps of the warder, as a debtor knows the knock of the bailiff. Edmond McAnally, Commissar of Police for the Second Arrondissement of Verrières, rose each morning at half past five, performed his ablutions with the cold water that he believed strengthened the constitution, consumed two boiled eggs and a pot of black coffee, and departed through the carriage gate at precisely six-fifteen. He returned at unpredictable hours, often reeking of tobacco and the cheap perfume that clung to the velveteen upholstery of the private rooms at the Théâtre des Célestins.
The perfume had a name, and the name had a face, and the face belonged to a woman called Coralie Desmoulins who performed the role of ingénue in the light comedies that Edmond attended with the devotion of a parishioner. Rolanda had seen her once, through the window of a pastry shop on the Place des Terreaux. She was young—perhaps twenty-two—with the kind of beauty that depended upon a certain blurring of the features, as though nature had sketched her in haste and declined to return for the details. Her hair was the color of champagne, her lips perpetually parted, her eyes rimmed with the faint shadow of late nights and easy laughter.
Rolanda had studied that face for perhaps thirty seconds before the young woman vanished into a fiacre, and in those thirty seconds she had felt something stir in her chest that was not anger, not grief, but something closer to the emotion a collector might feel upon discovering that a rival possessed a specimen he had believed unique to his own cabinet.
She had not mentioned this sighting to Edmond. She mentioned very little to Edmond, and he returned the courtesy with interest.
The day unfolded in the manner of all days: a visit from the seamstress at ten, during which Rolanda was fitted for a gown of dove-grey merino that would make her appear, the seamstress assured her, "most distinguished"; a luncheon of cold mutton and pickled beets taken alone in the dining room while the servants whispered in the pantry; an hour in the small salon with a volume of Lamartine's poetry that she had read three times before and would likely read three times again, for Edmond considered novels frivolous and had forbidden their presence in his house.
It was at half past three that the doorbell rang, and Rolanda's day, which had been merely tedious, became something else entirely.
The visitor was shown into the small salon by the parlor maid, whose expression suggested that she had been offered a gratuity and had accepted it. He was a man of perhaps fifty years, dressed in the black broadcloth of a provincial notary, with a portfolio of morocco leather tucked beneath his arm and an air of professional discretion so dense that it seemed to muffle his footsteps. His name, he informed her, was Maître Bouchardon, and he had come on a matter of some delicacy concerning the estate of her late father.
"My father has been dead for eleven years," Rolanda said. "I was not aware that his estate possessed any delicacy whatsoever."
Maître Bouchardon cleared his throat and produced from his portfolio a sheaf of documents tied with green ribbon. The late Monsieur Vallon, he explained, had in the final year of his life acquired a parcel of land in the district of Saint-Rambert, comprising some forty hectares of vineyard and a farmhouse of modest proportions. The acquisition had been made through an intermediary, for reasons that the notary did not presume to understand, and the existence of the property had only recently come to light during the settlement of that intermediary's own affairs.
"The land is yours, Madame," Bouchardon concluded. "By right of inheritance. The tenant farmers have maintained the vines in your absence, and the annual income, while not considerable, is not negligible. I have taken the liberty of preparing a summary of accounts."
He placed the documents on the marquetry table beside her elbow.
Rolanda looked at the papers without touching them. Her heart had begun to beat in a manner that she recognized as dangerous—the way it had beaten when she was a girl and had hidden a forbidden novel beneath her mattress, the way it beat when she walked past the Prefecture and imagined Edmond's office with its mahogany desk and its iron safe and its smell of authority.
"Does my husband know of this visit?" she asked.
"I have not had the honor of informing the Commissar," Bouchardon said. "As the property descends through the maternal line, the law is quite clear that it remains the separate property of the wife, not subject to the husband's administration. Article 1421 of the Civil Code. Of course, if Madame wishes to consult with her husband before proceeding—"
"That will not be necessary."
The words emerged more quickly than she had intended, and she saw the notary's eyebrows rise by a fraction. She composed her features into an expression of wifely deference.
"What I mean to say," she continued, "is that my husband is a very busy man. The security of Verrières depends upon his attention. I should not wish to trouble him with such trivial domestic matters."
Maître Bouchardon nodded slowly, and in his eyes Rolanda detected something that she had not seen directed at her in many years: the acknowledgment of one intelligence by another.
"Madame is most considerate," he said. "Shall I continue to remit the annual income to your personal account? The Banque de Lyon has maintained the arrangement established by your father's intermediary."
"I should prefer that a new account be opened," Rolanda said. "In my name alone. At a different institution. The Caisse d'Épargne de Verrières, perhaps."
She had never entered a bank in her life. Edmond handled all financial matters, dispensing a monthly allowance for household expenses with the air of a sovereign granting a charter. She was permitted to sign chits at certain approved shops; the bills were sent directly to the Prefecture, where Edmond's secretary reviewed them for irregularities.
But she had read the Civil Code—not all of it, but enough. She had found the volume in Edmond's study one afternoon while he was occupied with a case of suspected forgery, and she had committed certain articles to memory with the same patient diligence with which she had once memorized catechism.
Article 1421. Article 1428. Article 1443.
A wife might possess separate property. A wife might administer that property without her husband's interference. A wife might, under certain circumstances, petition for separation of goods.
These articles had settled into her mind like seeds into soil, and for six years they had lain dormant, waiting for the rain.
Maître Bouchardon departed at four o'clock, leaving behind his card and the sheaf of documents and a faint scent of snuff that lingered in the air like the ghost of possibility. Rolanda gathered the papers into her escritoire, which she locked with a key she wore on a chain around her neck, and then she sat for a long time in the gathering dusk, watching the shadows lengthen across the parquet floor.
She was thinking of the vineyard at Saint-Rambert. She had never seen it—had not, in fact, been more than fifteen kilometers from Verrières since her marriage—but she could imagine it with the precision of a woman who had spent seven years perfecting the art of imagination. She saw the rows of Gamay vines on the hillside, their leaves turning gold in the autumn light. She saw the farmhouse with its red-tiled roof and its walls of honey-colored stone. She saw herself standing at the doorway, looking out over land that was hers, only hers, land that Edmond had never touched and never would.
The fantasy was so vivid that for a moment she forgot to breathe.
And then the carriage gate creaked open, and the sound of hooves on cobblestones shattered the silence, and Rolanda Calloway McAnally rose from her chair and smoothed her skirts and composed her face into the expression that she wore as other women wore cosmetics.
Her husband was home.
Dinner that evening was a ceremony of silences.
The dining room was papered in crimson damask that had faded to the color of dried blood, and the chandelier shed a grudging light that left the corners of the room in permanent shadow. Edmond McAnally sat at the head of the table in his shirtsleeves, his collar unfastened, his jaw working methodically through a cutlet of veal that the cook had prepared in a sauce of capers and white wine. He was a large man, not fat but dense, with the physical presence of someone who had been constructed rather than born. His hands were square and blunt-fingered, the hands of a man who had risen from the ranks, who had learned to read at sixteen and to command at thirty. His face was handsome in the manner of a Roman bust—strong brow, straight nose, firm chin—but the eyes were small and set too close together, and they held the perpetual wariness of a predator who has learned that prey is everywhere.
Opposite him, Rolanda consumed her soup in small, careful spoonfuls, the silverware making no sound against the porcelain. She wore the dove-grey merino that the seamstress had delivered that afternoon, and she had dressed her hair with a ribbon of lavender silk that matched the embroidery on her cuffs. The effect was one of quiet elegance, the kind that required an observer of some sensitivity to appreciate.
Edmond was not such an observer.
"You've been spending again," he said, gesturing with his fork toward the new gown. "The seamstress sent her invoice to the Prefecture. Forty francs for a dress that looks like something a governess might wear to a funeral."
"The seamstress assures me that grey is very fashionable this season. I thought you preferred that I dress modestly."
"I prefer that you dress within the bounds of reason. Forty francs."
"The wife of the Commissar must maintain a certain standard of appearance. It reflects upon your position."
Edmond chewed his veal for a moment, considering this argument with the air of a judge weighing evidence he has already decided to dismiss. "My position," he said at length, "is maintained by my own efforts. It requires no assistance from your wardrobe."
He reached for the decanter and poured himself a glass of Burgundy, not offering any to his wife. The wine was a gift from a merchant who had recently been acquitted of customs fraud in a trial over which Edmond had presided. The merchant had expressed his gratitude with a case of Nuits-Saint-Georges and a note that Edmond had not thought to hide.
"The actress who performed in the farce at the Célestins last week," Edmond continued, "wore a gown that cost less than forty francs, and she appeared to much greater advantage."
Rolanda's spoon paused for the barest instant above her soup plate, then continued its trajectory. "I did not have the pleasure of attending the performance. You mentioned that the casework at the Prefecture required your presence that evening."
"The casework was concluded early. I attended alone."
"So I gathered."
The silence that followed was filled by the ticking of the mantel clock, a ponderous object of ormolu and marble that Edmond had acquired at the liquidation of a bankrupt aristocrat. Rolanda counted the seconds. Seven years, she thought. Seven years of such dinners, of such silences, of such allusions to women whose gowns cost less than forty francs.
Seven years, and she had never once raised her voice.
"The Prefecture received an interesting report this morning," Edmond said, pushing his plate aside and lighting a cigar. "A complaint from the Convent of the Visitation. It seems that one of the novices has been receiving letters from a young man of questionable character. The Mother Superior wishes the young man to be warned that any further correspondence will result in a charge of moral corruption."
"What has this to do with me?"
"Nothing, except that the novice in question is the daughter of the Mayor of Verrières, and the young man is the son of the Prefect of Police's former mistress. The politics of the situation require a certain delicacy." He exhaled a cloud of smoke toward the chandelier. "I mention it only because it illustrates a principle that I have observed throughout my career: women, when left to their own devices, invariably make disasters of themselves. They lack the capacity for rational judgment. Their natures are too fluid, too susceptible to sentiment."
He looked at his wife across the table, and his small eyes held a glint of something that might have been amusement or might have been malice.
"Perhaps that is why the law places them under the protection of husbands. As a railing is placed beside a staircase, to prevent the unwary from falling."
Rolanda folded her napkin and placed it beside her plate. "You are very wise in the ways of the law," she said. "I am fortunate to benefit from your protection."
Her voice was as smooth as the surface of the soup she had not finished. Edmond studied her for a moment longer, perhaps searching for the irony that he sensed but could not locate, and then he grunted and returned to his cigar.
At eleven o'clock, Rolanda retired to her bedchamber while Edmond remained in his study with a bottle of brandy and a stack of case files. She dismissed her maid, undressed herself, and stood for a long time before the cheval glass in her chemise, examining her reflection with the detached curiosity of a naturalist studying a specimen.
Her body was still slender, still firm, the body of a woman who had never borne children and never would. Edmond had ceased to visit her bed five years ago, shortly after the miscarriage that had nearly killed her. The physician had informed him that further pregnancies would be dangerous; Edmond had interpreted this as a release from his marital obligations. His needs, he had explained, would be met elsewhere, and he trusted that she would conduct herself with the dignity becoming to the wife of a Commissar.
She had not wept. She had not protested. She had merely nodded, as she nodded when he criticized her gowns, as she nodded when he spoke of women and staircases and the need for railings.
But tonight, standing before the mirror in the dim light of a single candle, Rolanda allowed herself to feel something that she had been suppressing for seven years, something that had been growing in the darkness like a fungus in a cellar, feeding on each slight, each humiliation, each casual dismissal of her existence.
It was not anger. Anger was too simple, too clean. Anger could be discharged in a shouted word, a thrown dish, a slammed door.
This was something else. This was the emotion that had driven Cain to raise his hand against Abel, not because Abel had wronged him but because Abel had been loved. This was the emotion that had driven Iago to destroy Othello, not for gain but for the pure satisfaction of watching greatness crumble. This was the emotion that the theologians called invidia, and they ranked it among the deadly sins not because it was the most violent but because it was the most patient, the most patient, the most willing to wait years, decades, a lifetime for its satisfaction.
Envy.
She envied Coralie Desmoulins her youth and her freedom and her small, pretty face that Edmond looked upon with desire. She envied Edmond his power and his certainty and his unexamined conviction that the world had been designed for his convenience. She envied the cook her ability to leave this house at night and return to a room of her own in the Faubourg Saint-Vincent. She envied the women she saw in the street, the shopgirls and the laundresses and the flower-sellers, who might be poor and hungry and cold but who did not have to sit at dinner and listen to themselves compared to actresses whose gowns cost less than forty francs.
But most of all, she envied the woman she might have been, the woman who existed now only as a ghost in the mirror, a woman who had made different choices or been born to different circumstances or simply possessed the courage to walk out the door and never return.
That woman had forty hectares of vineyard in Saint-Rambert. That woman had an income that was not negligible. That woman had, tucked away in a Caisse d'Épargne that her husband knew nothing about, the beginnings of something that might one day be called freedom.
Rolanda extinguished the candle and climbed into the vast canopied bed that she had slept in alone for five years, and as she drifted toward sleep she found herself thinking of the Civil Code, of Article 1443, of the words that she had read so many times that they had worn grooves in her memory:
A wife may petition the court for separation of goods when the disorder of the husband's affairs threatens the wife's separate property.
She thought of Edmond's affairs, which were disordered in ways that the Civil Code had never contemplated. She thought of the Prefecture's iron safe and the files it contained and the secrets that a wife of seven years might have accumulated without anyone suspecting.
And she thought of the vineyard at Saint-Rambert, where the Gamay grapes were ripening in the autumn sun, and where a farmhouse with a red-tiled roof stood waiting for a mistress who had not yet arrived.
The clock in the hall struck midnight, and in the silence that followed, Rolanda Calloway McAnally made a decision that she had been preparing to make for seven years, though she did not yet know what form it would take or what price it would demand or what kind of woman she would be when it was done.
She only knew that she was tired of being a railing.


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